I imagined what would happen if I killed myself. Who would be the first to find out. Who would care. Who wouldn’t. Who would show up to my funeral. Whether I would be buried or cremated.
I even thought about leaving my final messages to several people. Their reaction when they receive my videos. And whether they would satisfy my final requests.
I wonder what I would even want to say to them. I haven’t spoke to some of these people for a long time.
These people would be:
I’ll give you a clue. This list includes my precious and current lovers, family members, friends and therapist. Some hurt me, some love and care for me, and some used did both.