Where to go from here

How do people manage to continue on? How do they do it?  I don’t get it. 

Now is the time to be focused, put in my 100% and give it my all. 

I’m so tired. In falling back to old habits. 

I didn’t know what to expect after exposing myself to you. I didn’t expect anything at the time. 

Maybe I thought you would care more? 

The past days have been pretty busy for me. Day to night. Meeting people. Trying to showcase the better part of me with the helping alcohol.

I don’t know how to explain it. I feel nothing. 

My friends have their own problems to deal with. Then they blame me when I don’t ask them for help. They get upset when I deal with it myself. 

I really feel like I’m just waiting for each day to end. No longer excited. Nothing to look forward too.


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